Monday, December 05, 2005

Is it hatred i wonder?!ive always said that word so casually , sometimes i really wonder whether i truly mean it. my actions obviously doesnt show me so, for after a while the liking resurfaces.


Perhaps its a learning journey. Its ot about anyone else anymore. Its more of learnign about myself through others around me.


Bday coming liao! dun really feel that excited. I guess its still a day-by-day lifestyle basis now. my casual msg dun seem to work. i want to give up so badly. but i dun want to live to regret. continuation of the friendship somehow becomes a dilemma. the rational side says i shld, but the emotional side says i shld end it once and for all.


Damn. why must it be so mind-boggling? why must yanling be such a thinker on such interpersonal issues? Seems like the boon of my life has lived to become my bane. expecting darker days ahead . hoping to see the light though.

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