Sunday, January 16, 2005
oh i finally blogged!! surprising right?!
yeah!it's like so long dear..i wanted to abandon u.
yeps. my og is fun.my og is crazy. my og is lame.and very lame. go ask victor and joseph and that whole grp.sorry randall.. i had to do my dare..but it was hell of a fun, wasnt it?!
ok back to sth which has really been coursing through my mind all this while. somehow being in a new place gives me a sense of de ja vu.but once again i feel a total sense of remoteness and somehow a sense of familiarity at the same time.somehow the former takes its place ,ost of the time.
and it doesnt help when there are so many ahs, dunman and cchs pple arnd, pple who know each other.somehow i always feel like a lost soul wandering in a territory that aint mine.but once again, what is MY territory?! i know i just have to get used to things. but it also involves superficial versatility.meaning im acting versatile. it can be hard. at times.when the going gets tough. how i wish i was arnd pple whom im more familiar.pple who really know me.pple who dont judge me already.i know its impossible, after all we are all still starting anew.u judge pple by their actions and speech.it's inevitable.sigh.
actually oac camp was fun. we meet lotsa different pple.somehow being an ij girl does not really help jc life. 4 yrs of an environment with only girls make it harder for us to accept guys in sch.but actually, i can readily say that im versatile.i think i can still make friends anywhere and everywhere. but only when situation allows it.as i said, jc is full of other pple.we never know who or what they actually are.
im not saying that the oac pple were sucky. they were, acually, in a way.exploiting us all the time. that youcai and kargea always bully my grp during the candle game. not fair man.perhaps the adventures were quite ok, just that the pple mostly formed cliques.it makes it diff for me to break into their social circles. anyway, till next time.
whos willing or so free to help me search for blog skins.pls.im still searching for PDPs and trying things out.
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