Sunday, October 17, 2004

i visited a few jc open houses this week..all seems quite ok..aj was disappointing..ok..so im gonna try njc..only i have to take chinese...my father wants me to follow my brother's route..that is to go china next time..he says i have potential..but look at my chinese grades.


its not like i totally hate chinese..its nice..its fun but i dont know whether ill excel in it..its needed for university entry..i can opt for science stream actually..but im not gonna take bio or phy..im totally retarded in those areas..so it leaves me with the only option of the arts stream, which is econs,hist,cmaths and CLA or the science stream which is fmaths, cmaths,chem and econs..and they say econs is hard!! i have no idea which one ill end up in, perhaps neither so im gonna work it..


ive been feeling rather down this week, so much so i cant put myself into the right frame of mind for studying.half of me tells me i have to work now and not waste time, but the other half talls me that i need to sort out my prob first and think about my whole oulook in life.it's kinda hard.and i cant imagine how much ive fallen into an abyss for my shyness and fears.it's true, im more daring and am very open to everything, but i still have inhibitions.1 half of me tells me not to waste any opportunities and go for it, and the other half says: what if this, what if that, they might think bad of me.so here i am, in a dilemma...


somehow i miss wushu practice. it helps me keep fit and the pple there are wonderful. ive come to enjoy those sessions so much more now, than 2 yrs ago.but the thing is ...ill have to sto for a while..my dad says..to concentrate on my studies.my sis moved to the hostel to mug non-stop..and what am i doing..blogging and wasting time over minor issues in me..i really wanna excel and do well...so now i have to get to work..
pray for all those who are still struggling with their studies and feeling downcast.God Bless All.

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