Sunday, May 16, 2004
yes... exams are over.
listening to ufm i think its damn philosophical.tt dj is saying if we have anything just say it out.dont keep it in.itll just make u unwell and sad.
i especially hate the times when im reflecting on the pains inflicted on me.going thru all the agony again.some1 inflicted pain on me with her words today and i was feeling damn down.i juz have the habit of trying to digest all the pain and the process is always so painful and traumatising.
ji lao shi said sth about the youths of 2day not being zun shi zong dao. its very true.i kinda like 2 listen 2 him talk.its philosophical but humorous and witty at the same time.its like he hit on my weak spot. tts what im always going thru. so i find it very enriching.
pity pple arnd me dunno it.sometimes i juz feel so bad tt pple can be so insensitive and tactless.esp since the pple who inflicts all this pain is always older.
but u know what im still very thankful 4 all these.they make me reflect on my life. and i dun only think of their faults. i tell myself perhaps it might be me too. u know i really thank God for all these trials.they make me grow. irealised how much i have grown in these yrs. its like i can feel myself blossoming, esp since I was dealt a grat blow in p6.from then on i have definitely viewed all these as challenges. & the good thing is: i can overcome all these myself.
but i know its not good. pple might juz collapse from all the burdens. the thing is my close frens cant be 2gether with me 4ever.how i wish there's alwaes some1 to go thru all tt with me all the time. but nvm all these yrs ive grown independent.i think i can still do it.occasionally, iknow its good to let off some.at least i wont get overburdened.cos i think somehow pple arnd me dun realli know the real me, perhaps only a few.yes acquaintances i do have a lot. but the fact is why do we all have very few confidantes and close frens. i juz wish for more... embedded in between at 8:50 PM
