Friday, April 02, 2004
stop pushing me k.. as in literally.. stop giving me all this unknown stress..ure only impeding my growth by making my feelings unstable and thus unable 2 focus..
i dont need all this.. all your rubbish.. how i wish u werent there...
ill just explode 1 day k.... it's all thanks 2 god who gave me sth called self-control.. ive had things bottled up for a long time while...all the stress uve given me have lasted for at least 5 yrs... can u pls stop all these..
the day i cried when i collected my psle results was not due 2 my results.. it was because of u... u made me feel tt they were poor...u madfe numerous comparisons to others, but cant u understand every1 is different.. every1 has different potential.. i might not be outstanding in my studies but i definitely worth more... i can be good in other stuff so pls take time 2 understand me and stop fitting your ideals of perfection on me cos i cant stand it..... and the way u say everything irks me..
uve made my heart harden up all this while... the hard feelings i feel is because of your treatment to me...i pray 2 god tt u pls stop all this.
"heavenly father..pls help me through this trial..ive suffered long enough and every where i fall is connceted to this. help me 2 reflect on myself too and build character along the way. help me grow up along the way and face further obstacles with more guts and courage and face my problems head-on. all i ask in jesus' name. amen" embedded in between at 10:21 PM
